Curious

I'm 33, I haven't dated in 14 or so years.  I have 3 daughters.  This is SCARY!  So, I wondered to myself, "Who in the world is gonna want to date me?"  And "Is there anyone out there even worth dating?"  It just seems like all the good guys would already be taken, and the rest are single for a reason, right?  But maybe there is Mr. Right still out there, and he has just been waiting for me.  He is just waiting for that super cute chick, who farts too.  That's right... I said it... I am cute.  I may be a dork, but that is just part of what makes me so cute!  I'm not even ashamed to admit it.... for far to long I was so down on myself... when KnuckleHead left me .... I had to take a good look at myself.  Since I couldn't do anything to change him, I started working on ME!  I still have things that I am working on and forever will be, but anyone one who knows me, knows that I have changed in some major ways... and all for the better.  Spiritually, emotionally, and most obvious, physically.

So back to finding Mr. Right....

My curiosity got the best of me, and I started checking out online dating sites.  AHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Finally, I chose one to set up a profile, ldslinkup.com.  I just wanted to know if there was any cute LDS guys out there, in an age range I felt comfortable in dating.

The first guy to show interest in me was *Josh.  So, we e-mailed back and forth for a few minutes, and then he asks me if I text.... because his Internet is running really slow.  (REMEMBER PEOPLE- I have been out of the dating scene for a really long time, I am CLUELESS! There was no texting when I use to date. )  I freaked out a little... what should I do?  Oh what the heck, I gave him my number... what's the worst thing that could happen?
BAHAHAHA!
So we text for a few minutes, and then BAM, he sends me a picture.... shirtless.  Flipping hot amazing body!  But... no face?  What the heck?  I was confused for a second, but whatever.... his body was AMAZING!

 I started freaking out... "what the heck would this hard body want with me?" " why is a guy with a body like that, online dating?"  "Why does he have to live so far away, Lehi Utah...?"  "wait, I have family there, oh, I need to go to Utah!!!!!!!!!!!"  "Whoa, I can't compete with a body like that, what would he think of my rolls and stretch marks?"
And then, he texts:  Send me a pic
WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!  It's 11:00pm.  I'm not gonna take a pic of myself in my jammies, with no makeup.  (I have since learned, anytime I look cute, take a pic and store it in my phone for future use.  hehehe, sneaky ) 
So, I just sent him a message that I did not have a stockpile of hot topless photos on my phone.  Then *Josh said, LOL, and I didn't hear from him the rest of the night.

So, that was the first of my lessons I have learned....  you'll have to check back in to hear more... and it gets GOOD! (Laughing at my dumb butt, that is.)
Time to go back into MOM mode.

Some backround.....

I was married for 12 years when my husband left... then another year plus some, until I finally said, "Why haven't you divorced me yet?"  I honestly don't know what his problem was/is, but I finally decided to take control and file for divorce.  What a weight off my shoulders.

Now I am in this stupid waiting period.... waiting to see how things will unfold so I can begin to plan the next chapter in my life.  Everyone keeps asking me what my plans are... the truth, as of right now... I have none!  I keep trying to make plans and goals, but right now, things are so up in the air, I just have to wait for more pieces of the puzzle to land before I can begin to put it together.  So.... I wait.  And it is boring as all hell!